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What Is My Part

I watched a restrained man begging for help and unable to breathe as men who were sworn to help knelt on his neck and stood by doing nothing. Then he died. 
This is the latest tragedy in a line too long to count. I have been asking again and again. Father, what is my part? How do I help? How do I not hurt? What would you have me do?
I was born in the deep south and was raised to see and respect all people. I was also born into a privilege that has shielded me from more than I know and blinds me to even more. Father, show me.
I want to respond like Jesus. I want to be angry and not sin like Jesus. I want to love like Jesus. Father, what is my part? 
We have to keep asking and then obey. If we want to help bring the change, we have to ask, and then we do something. Father, what is my part?

Don't Give Up

This picture was taken while I was deep into labor with my second child. I can vividly remember the exhaustion and the assurance that I could, and I would deliver her. I had done this before, and I knew for certain that I was made for this. Yes, it hurt a lot, yes labor lasted longer then I thought I could bear but, she came. We were both healthy had months of stretching and growing and get us both ready for birth.
You may be in the long stretch of waiting for the promised life to come. With every breath, your aching and stretching may be screaming at you. Remember, you were made for this. You have been here before with another promise, and it was delivered. You may feel this has taken too long, but just wait. Beauty is coming, and you will hold it in both hands! Press on. Life is coming!!!

Galatians 6:9
Let us not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up.


I hear the Father asking me to dream with Him. To take a walk and ask all the ”What if?” questions. The things He is purposing would of in the past scared the ever-loving boogers out of me.

By nature, I can be a nesting peacekeeper, who doesn't strive beyond the known boundaries. God has shown up time and time again, earning my trust. I see myself getting excited at the possibilities of ”what if?” I feel free and safe in dreaming big and allowing God to mold the desires in my heart.
Now I guarantee you if I get tired or distracted for too long, my burrowing, fearful ways will try to come back.

So at this moment, I choose connection; I embrace the widows where He asks me to rest. I lean deeper into His chest and Dream.
What is He asking of you today?

Known By God

God designed us with such intention. He gave us eyelashes to protect our eyes from dust. He created us to respond with tears to release joy and sorrow. You were designed intentionally. God knew what you would face and what would serve you. Nothing has changed regarding your needs. God created them, and God will meet them. He knew before you did what the enemy would throw at you. 

Don't be fooled for a moment that it is up to you to gather all you need. 

You are known more intimately then you can imagine. He knows you, and He adores you. Now grow in your knowledge of His character. That way, you can trust Him more fully to take care of you.

Grab It

This verse leaped at me this morning. Often I will see a scripture, see a picture in my mind or remember a verse. It will come and then goes almost like a leaf floating by. I have the opportunity to grab it and study it or let it float along.

Often within a few hours, the same thing will float by again. The Holy Spirit is so kind as to give me more than one opportunity to grab what God is saying. When I do grab it after meditating, reading, writing it, or singing it what I see is expanded. God doesn’t often clarify or even color in the picture until I choose to hold it and look closer.

If you have something float by today, grab it! If you have missed an opportunity, look for the next thing, God highlights for you. What He brings will always be accompanied by Peace and never contradict the Word of God. This practice is like a muscle and will become a life source for you to perceive what the Father is saying to you.

My God is Kind

God is Kind and honest in His delivery. He is never cruel but always tells the truth. God has presented to me truth in many different ways and through different people. The common denominator is it never humiliated me or made me want to run. God’s truth and voice always call us to His arms. 

If you hear facts that make you want to hide. If you are being beaten up by past choices. This is not God. He is kind, loving, forgiving and compassionate. You can reject the accusing voice and return to God’s word that says you are forgiven, covered, and deeply loved. That is the honest truth.

1 John 4:8
Anyone who does not love does not know God, because God is love.

1 Corinthians 13:4-8
Love is patient and kind; love does not envy or boast; it is not arrogant or rude. It does not insist on its own way; it is not irritable or resentful; it does not rejoice at wrongdoing, but rejoices with the truth. Love bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things.
Love never ends.

I choose rest

My sweet daughter, for the first time, asked to take a nap today. She knew that meant missing some playtime and sleeping alone. I was so proud of her self-awareness and the maturity to know when to rest. 

I was relishing as a mom the victory when I heard the Father. He said, ”I want to teach you how to choose rest more often. To be secure enough to miss out on your plans to enjoy fully what I have for you."

Rest has never been easy for me. I always see the ”want to’s, should do’s, must do’s” I also understand that when I have chosen rest everything necessary is completed.
Perhaps this post is only a reminder to my self to rest. To let go and settle into refreshing. Future Niki, this one is for you. Rest!

Psalm 23:1-3
The Lord is my shepherd;
I have all that I need.
He lets me rest in green meadows;
he leads me beside peaceful streams.
He renews my strength.
He guides me along right paths,
bringing honor to his name.


The Father's heart is that our Hope would rest on more than Luke 1:37. He designed it that through pursuing a personal relationship; we will know who He is. That means we know God's character and His will towards us.

God's character is loving and kind. His will is that we prosper and be in good health just as our mind, will, and emotions thrive in health. (3 John 1:2) Our God is good. He is for us, and absolutely nothing is too complicated for him.

Now I marry my established faith with His loving character and unfailing power and watch prosperity and fullness of life explode!! This walk was never meant to be lived in a blind trust. It was meant to be taken step by step in relational trust that is built.


All the seeking. All the looking for answers. The choice to never be satisfied with less than abundant life. It is worth it. 
When God designed us. We were created to thrive and live in a grace-filled Rhythm. None of this, ”just getting by, always a fight, junk!”
You are right to be still seeking more. The thing deep inside that says, ”Keep Going! Don't Stop!” that is the Holy Spirit.
He wants you to use your will not to settle, not to give up. You are right in your discontent. You also know that only your designer holds all the pieces to the life you know you were made to live.
Until we get to Heaven, we are faced with the choice to settle or press into more of what God has for us. It is a growing, learning, stretching, and satisfying dance. Keep Going! Keep asking for more! Your designer is thrilled to give you a fully satisfying life! Don’t settle!

I have Questions

Certain scriptures make me say," what?" Life happens, and I see events unfold, and I am confused. I do not question God's love for me or His goodness. I do not question my own foundation. But y' all I have questions.

God is okay with that. He is ready like a mature, prepared parent to field our questions. Some He answers immediately. Some He holds in His hands until we can bear the weight of the answer.

I want my kids to have questions. I want them to work out what they believe, not just accept what is told to them. Then they will own their own opinions and stand firmly with their roots, not someone else's.

Don't think that your questions disqualify you from a genuine relationship with God. Authentic relationships are built on honesty and transparency. Go for it! Ask all the things. Your job is to respond when He calls you to His Word. Recognize as He confirms what He has already answered through people or circumstance.
God loves you, and He already hears your heart. Just say it and hear God's heart.

 It won't break you. It will not make God mad. It will build you up, and it will delight the Father's heart!

Matthews 7:7
"Ask, and it will be given to you; seek, 
and you will find; knock, and it will be opened to you."


My kids and I have a thing where after agreeing to future plans or them acknowledge what I have asked of them with joy. We high-five each other. It kinda seals the deal and is a celebration!
Last night as I was thinking over the day. I saw victories and failures. Fruit and weeds. Then I saw the Father. He was talking about tomorrow and the week ahead. He asked me to simplify my expectations and focus on a small list. Then He high-fived me.
That was new, and I totally knew what that meant. It means I hear you, and you hear me. We are moving forward in agreement and joy! Done deal!
I want to encourage you to lay your days out with the Father. Let him paint a picture on your heart of where he wants you to put your hands. Then move forward in agreement and joy! He is your partner, and God is waiting for you to high-five him back!!!

Proverbs 3:5-6
Trust in the Lord completely,
and do not rely on your own opinions.
With all your heart rely on him to guide you, and he will lead you in every decision you make. Become intimate with him in whatever you do, and he will lead you wherever you go.

p.s. I know this is a thumb's up, but He is so cute! Had to post.

Loosen Your Grip

I hear the Father whispering. 
You see all that needs to be done, and the perceived time is ticking down faster and faster. 
I want to help. I want to take the burden from you loosen your grip. 

I know you wonder how you could ever let go. You want to, but how? Look at my face. It is reflected in my Word. Let me show you how capable, how gracious, and complete my plans for you are. I won't drop a single detail. Your exchange will be for Peace. The pieces I leave in your hands I have already equipped you to carry. 

You will open your hands to me as my love permeates your aching muscles. This is not a test. I didn't bring you to this point of exhaustion. But I will refresh your soul with my kindness, and I will astound you with even the pieces you have forgotten being placed perfectly. I have always known your heart's desire. Let me hold it. Loosen your grip. 

           Psalm 139:1-5

Lord, you have seen what is in my heart.
    You know all about me.

You know when I sit down and when I get up.
    You know what I’m thinking even though you are far away.
You know when I go out to work and when I come back home.
    You know exactly how I live.
Lord, even before I speak a word,
    you know all about it.
You are all around me, 
behind me and in front of me.
You hold me safe in your hand.


I believe we are awakening to what has always been. The provision for purpose and a people walking in matured Love was God's plan from the beginning. The world has always had it's counterfeit for it. Proclaiming that Love was the answer and all we needed.

Today I am telling you that an awakening to the One who IS Love is here. Scales that have sat on the eyes of generations are falling off. A thirst for authentic connection and the purpose that comes from knowing you belong. This was always meant to be the wind in our sails.
You will know the ones who have joined the ranks of the awakened. They will have eyes to see the people around them with genuine Love. They will move in compassion and kindness. They will stand firm to protect the weaker ones, and their unshakable footing will be Peace.

It will permeate businesses, schools antiquated gatherings of God's people who never grew passed being babies. This is the path of the maturing. The ones who are bringing up families of their own and are not afraid to look different from their fathers.
They instead look exactly like Jesus and the ones looking for Him will run to these Christ-like ones. The people of His Love. The Awakened

Ephesians 5:13-14
Whatever the revelation-light exposes, it will also correct, 
and everything that reveals truth is light to the soul. 
This is why the Scripture says,
"Arise, you sleeper! Rise up from the dead and the Anointed One will shine his light into you!"