I have long held the belief that my God is the God of completion. That what He starts He also finishes. This also makes Him the God of Next! He is the God of new beginnings and next chapters. Don't be afraid of new chapters that seem entirely foreign to your senses.

I have been notorious for wanting to stay still. To be firmly nestled in where I am. Peacefully nesting is my jam Y'all. God has a habit of interrupting my settling with a new season. His "next" surprises me but always brings life and adds to the Kingdom's story of redemption and relationship with Him.

Don't fight the next He is presenting.

You know exactly what I am talking about. That vision God has planted in your heart that scares the crap out of you. Yep, that's the one. Welcome to your "next." Reject the fear that wants to attach to that vision. Instead, ask God to show you more clearly your next step of agreeing with this chapter. It will bear good fruit. You will be happy you stopped and changed your direction to align with what you know the Spirit is presenting.

He has never left you.

He has never forsaken you.

This is no exception.

This new chapter is a two-person job. Your partner is ready, and if He asked you to come along that means so are you.

Deuteronomy 31:6
Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified because of them, for the Lord your God goes with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you.

Jeremiah 29:11
For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.


I have a kitty named Brailey. I do believe he is a teddy bear dressed up as a cat. This fluff ball is warm and purry and snuggly. If all cats were like him, everyone would have a cat. I firmly believe this. Brailey is my "Therapy Cat." I come from a long line of "doers." We don't sit still easily, and we certainly don't sit down without something to busy our hands.
When this Golden puff plops in my lap, my heart rate instantly drops, and I am entirely present for his supreme softness.
Brailey reminds me of the Holy Spirit. He is called the comforter. He is the peace found in the stillness and the joy found in observing the beauty right in front of us. I know that just like this kitty He longs to curl up and sit with us. He wants to remind us that just being can bring healing.
When was the last time you just sat and allowed the Holy Spirit to minister to you in the stillness? This place of acknowledging I AM, the act of looking for the details of love that whether we know it or not, they want to settle on us like a giant ball of love fluff.
Yes, I am making light of all this, but I promise if you sit still He will come.  You will be reminded of everything God has said concerning you. You will be comforted, and suddenly the truth that He has been whispering will become louder and rest heavily in your heart.

John 14:26
 But the Comforter, which is the Holy Ghost, whom the Father will send in my name, he shall teach you all things, and bring all things to your remembrance, whatsoever I have said unto you.

Isaiah 32:17
And the effect of righteousness will be peace, and the result of righteousness, quietness, and trust forever.

Vision Possible

"Our Visions are not only highly important to us but highly important to God. Why else would He have created within us the ability to think, imagine and dream?" -Butch & Julieann Hartman

Every Vision, idea, and dream, I have in my heart was put there by God. I have been in a season of growing, planting and expanding these visions. The first steps and what my practical part is in their execution have been my hangup. My incredible friends released a book this month on this very subject, Vision Possible by Butch and Julieann Hartman! I love these people and the successes they have achieved in life and for the Kingdom Inspire me greatly!
 I sat down excited to read what Butch and Julieann had written. I specifically asked the Holy Spirit which vision He wanted to grow farther. I have Visions concerning almost every area of my life, my marriage, children, my physical body, ministry, finances, etc.
God honestly surprised me when He said, "Let's focus on the vision for your Homeschool."  We are two years into this homeschool journey, and the task still feels so big. It is interesting that the things God calls us to are always bigger than ourselves.
Within the first three chapters of reading, I had written a clear "Vision Statement" for our school. Next thing I know I had identified the fears and concerns that were causing me to hesitate in fully executing my part. I know this may seem like a plug for a book, but this is not a book it is a tool.
We do not just serve a God of Vision but one of Clarity! That is what this book has brought to me. I have applied it to the sharpening of my vision but also the practical steps and advice written from a place of great experience were incredibly helpful. I am excited to see which area God focuses on next. I know I will apply the same steps and scriptures to the cultivating of that vision.

What is a dream or Vision God has planted in your heart? If you are looking to sharpen and pursue that vision if you have a business, ministry or idea you long to see manifest. I highly recommend this tool for your journey.

My Mark

17 years ago today. Has it indeed been that long? Our relationship is almost a whole grown up.
I have said since the beginning that choosing Mark was my second best decision next to Jesus. When we met it scared me. I was 9 months post receiving my healing and set on bible college. I would attend Charis and then set off for the mission field. My God had a bigger plan. He had designed a mate who would give me space to become a whole person. One who didn’t just know who she was in the spirit. He would allow me to explore what kind of eggs I liked and what size jeans I wear when I eat a well rounded American carb filled diet.
My precious, steadfast husband has been an intricate part of the payback and fulfillment of what was always meant to be. I did not marry a knight in shining armor. That bright image is reserved for the one who died for me. Instead, I was given a fellow knight. One who persistently peruses the grace of God and the fruit of a life that flows from that grace. He is the first one to remind me to pick up my sword and fight! He is the first one to turn my eyes back to my savior instead of disappearing into human arms for comfort.
We have celebrated many victories, we have chosen to watch with expectation when disappointment wanted to settle in. We have grown, and we are growing. I love us!!! Happy Anniversary Mark! You wear your armor so well. 

The Song

What are the songs that get stuck in your head? For me, it's either a late 90's alternative rock anthem or a soul torturing song from Barney the Purple Dinosaur. I have range folks. I have learned as a person who lives their life with a song almost continually playing in my mind (I like to think it's like a Disney princess thing and not a therapy thing). I have learned that these songs cannot be stopped only replaced. I have to meditate and focus myself on a more beneficial and acceptable narrative when harmful and annoying melodies persist.

Don't think for a minute that the contrary thoughts to the Word of God or the nagging feeling of doubt will just be banished. They must be replaced. Return to the songbook of God's Word. Latch onto the verse that makes your heart sing the song of Hope. This is where lies will be replaced, and the good seed will be watered with the truth. Yes, this part is your responsibility, and the Holy Spirit will meet you there. He will sing only Truth over you, and that will be Life!

You want to go to battle? Then remember that your sword is made up of pages and filled with words of life and promises. Pull them out and let them be heard by your enemy. More importantly, they will be heard by you. We tend to believe our own voices more than any other. That is just how we work, so speak this new song out loud. Let it ring in the air around you. You will rejoice, and the enemy will flee faster then if you were singing Lambchop's "This Is The Song That Doesn't End!"

Psalm 57:5-11
Be exalted, O God, above the heavens;
let your glory be over all the earth.
They spread a net for my feet—
I was bowed down in distress.
They dug a pit in my path—
but they have fallen into it themselves.
My heart, O God, is steadfast,
my heart is steadfast;
I will sing and make music.
Awake, my soul!
Awake, harp and lyre!
I will awaken the dawn.
I will praise you, Lord, among the nations;
I will sing of you among the peoples.
For great is your love, reaching to the heavens;
your faithfulness reaches to the skies.
Be exalted, O God, above the heavens;
let your glory be over all the earth.

Sit Down

I constantly find myself talking with the Lord about walking in grace in my daily life. The real life. Not the highlights or even the low lights. The every day, need to do laundry, I'm tired and need a weekend after the weekend life.

Every single time God asks me to sit down. To let Him direct my next step, to respond as a daughter who has been given all she needs. He wants me to pause and let Him show me what the enemy has stupidly tried to present me with as truth. To let my heart ponder the dreams, He wants to plant and to water them with the Word. A lot can be done from sitting.  I'm so limited when I choose to hold myself up.

Ephesians 2:6
And God raised us up with Christ and seated us with him in the heavenly realms in Christ Jesus.

When we sit down four things happen.

1. We take a deep breath.

2. We transfer the weight we have been holding up.

3. We look around.

4. We listen.

When we sit down we are positioned in the power we have inherited through Christ. In no way are we made more venerable.

Breath, stop holding your breath and breath!!! Give yourself permission to need oxygen. Fresh life will fill you. This never happens when we insist on standing on our own. I can not imagine taking a deep cleansing breath while sprinting.

These breaths and pauses with the Father. That is where we are refresh and reminded that at the core our source is only Him.

So when we need to respond to the world around us.
A rested and settled heart is far more precise in the execution of authority. We don't fumble, we don't react but instead respond decisively.

We are faster to command our authority because we can see the threat coming. Like a watchman in a tower. You know he has a comfy spot to rest and wait.

When I am tired the true threats get cloudy, and the false threats get big. This has been true my whole life. I am by nature pretty calm and collected but get Niki tired, and I am an unbalanced and highly over-reactionary woman. (Insert Hot-mess)

The really tricky part about staying seated is, It is always a conscious decision to stay there. It never ever just happens and it is sometimes a moment by moment choice. The Holy Spirit is so faithful to remind me to sit down.

But His voice is always calm it never yells. I hear him better when I'm not standing up on the inside. When I have submitted my heart to His heart. When I have allowed the peace that passes understanding to be the song of my day. That is when He doesn't have to compete with my noise and the noise I have allowed onto my heart.

There are times when I have let the world win, and I have firmly stood up longer than my little legs were made to. This is when I shake my head and wonder why once again I have stood too long. It's at this point I repent and turn around. I run right back to the Word, and I sit. The Word always brings me back to the one who was beaten, bruised, whose legs were broken and who ultimately sat down.

He sat down having won the Keys of Hell and Death. He sat down at the right hand of the Father having completed all that needed to be done to restore His beloved. He sat down and asked me to sit beside him. So I sit.

Ephesians 1:18-21
I pray that the eyes of your heart may be enlightened so that you may know the hope to which he has called you, the riches of his glorious inheritance in his holy people, and his incomparably great power for us who believe. That power is the same as the mighty strength he exerted when he raised Christ from the dead and seated him at his right hand in the heavenly realms, far above all rule and authority, power and dominion, and every name that is invoked, not only in the present age but also in the one to come.

Good News

Truth be told this has not been my best week. My little girl and I have been fighting a virus, and I have had to cancel plans that were close to my heart. ( I HATE THIS) As soon as I turn to God, He has shown me the next grace-filled step. He has met me right where I am not where I “should be.” Then He reminds me of the good and the promises just waiting around the bend.
God has good news for you. If you have had a crappy day or if life keeps throwing curve balls at you just remember, our God is the God of good news. He is the God of reconciliation, prosperity, and deliverance. The pressures of this world seek to shut us down. They are sent to drive us away from pursuing the one who holds our Victory in His hands.
Don’t walk but run to God the Father. His thoughts towards you are good, and His plans are for your benefit. Don’t allow the enemy to drive a wedge between you and the author of your Victorious Story!

1 Corinthians 15:1-2

Now, brothers and sisters, I want you to remember the Good News I told you. You received that Good News message, and you continue to base your life on it. 2 That Good News, the message you heard from me, is God’s way to save you. But you must continue believing it. If you don’t, you believed for nothing.