My heart feels stirred up like a pond after a storm. I find myself fighting tears more then I'm comfortable with, and the funny thing is I can not put my finger on exactly why.  That is okay.
I am not trying to sit in sadness. No, that's not it. I am not even sad, I am actually tender. God is doing something in my heart. Pressing with an even hand as the playdough of my heart stretches farther.
I have nothing profound to share. I only want to encourage you. If you feel the sculptor molding you. If you feel a bit undone and yet wholly held. Stay in His hand. Let God finish what He started in you. He won't miss a detail.
You will have the grace to take care of your" must do's." Just don't stand up in your heart until He says finished.
It's okay to be red nosed and held.
You are safe in love and made perfect in weakness.
This is where I sit.

Jeremiah 18:3-6 ESV
So I went down to the potter's house, and there he was working at his wheel. And the vessel he was making of clay was spoiled in the potter's hand, and he reworked it into another vessel, as it seemed good to the potter to do.
Then the word of the Lord came to me:" O house of Israel, can I not do with you as this potter has done? Declares the Lord. Behold, like the clay in the potter's hand, so are you in my hand, O house of Israel.

Heart's Crying

I can hear it.
I can hear hearts crying today. They are crying from long felt pain and disappointments so deep your cry no longer make a sound. You Father is calling back, and He is asking you to run, don’t walk into His arms. He has sent the answers the first time you prayed. Some of the answers are about to break in front of your eyes. Don’t sit in this pain. Press forward straight into his enfolding faithfulness.

Listen to this song and settle deeply in His secure love. Your story will not end here. Your heart will breath fresh air again. Run!!!

I look up to the mountains and hills, longing for God’s help.
But then I realize that our true help and protection
come only from the Lord,
our Creator who made the heavens and the earth.
He will guard and guide me, never letting me stumble or fall.
God is my keeper; he will never forget nor ignore me. 
He will never slumber nor sleep;
he is the Guardian-God for his people, Israel.
Jehovah himself will watch over you;

he’s always at your side to shelter you safely in his presence.
He’s protecting you from all danger both day and night.
He will keep you from every form of evil or calamity
as he continually watches over you.
You will be guarded by God himself.
You will be safe when you leave your home
and safely you will return.
He will protect you now,
and he’ll protect you forevermore!
Psalm 121

The Kingdom

We had a fantastic day yesterday. Kayley and I dressed up and pretended to be Belle. My son pretended to be a spy, and my extended family joined in the magic. This is hands down my favorite photo of the event. I found myself hiding the memories in my heart as they happened.

The incredible thing about my kids is they believe my husband and I. We have a "We don't lie to our kid's policy" in our home. Sometimes we reserve the right not to tell them everything, but we do not lie. This has served us so well.

I realized when looking at this photo. If I told my children, they were from a royal bloodline. That their royalty gave them the rights to an entire kingdom, they would believe me. The thing is because of what Jesus did, they are truly royal. They have an inheritance of Righteousness, Peace, and Joy that is the very substance of God's Kingdom. I pray daily that my kids will have a personal, profound revelation of who they are and what is theirs. I also hope that they know God would never lie to them, never set them up for disappointment and always hopes for them to be settled in truth.

I pray that as God whispers your true identity to You. Your heart is filled with excitement and a deep sense of belonging. God's Word tells us of these facts. God is who He says He is. We are who God says we are. We have inherited a magnificent kingdom, the Kingdom of Truth.

James 2:5
So listen carefully, my dear brothers and sisters, 
hasn't God chosen the poor in the world's eyes to be those who are rich in faith? 
And won't they be the heirs of the kingdom-realm he promised to those who love him?

Romans 14:17
 For the kingdom of God is not a matter of eating and drinking
 but of righteousness and peace and joy in the Holy Spirit.

Same Message Different Minister

I went to write a Father's Day tribute to my husband. What I was struck with was how different we are from one another. Mark is an exceptional father to our treasures. He is also wholly and completely different than me in how he parents.
In our parenting, I am soft; he is loud, I am flexible, and he is steadfast, I am the nurturer, and he is the teacher. He is different, and I am so very, very thankful. We both know the same Jesus and parenting from the foundation of His love and truth has been the glue to everything. It has also been the grace when we mess up often.

God knew what He was doing when He made it take two people to make babies. Not just two people but a male and female. I am thankful for our differences. It has made our home more balanced and able to minister to all sides of our very male and female children.

If you are a fellow co-parent or if you have found yourself serving beside someone so very different then you. It is time to celebrate! You don't have to check all the boxes or know how to hold all the balls. You have a partner that was designed to carry what you seem always to drop!

Ephesians 4:15
Rather, speaking the truth in love, we are to grow up in every way into him who is the head, into Christ, from whom the whole body, joined and held together by every joint with which it is equipped, when each part is working properly, makes the body grow so that it builds itself up in love.

Happy Father's Day, my Love. 
You are exactly what we needed.
 Let alone you are all kinds of cute. 
I love you, and I am thankful for us!!!

Intimate Sculptor

God held you in His hands and carefully formed your very being. Every detail and freckle was placed with intention by your designer. To think that the one who took the time to make you doesn't care about every single thing concerning you makes zero sense. In fact, the longing of God's heart is to make you whole again.

Do not allow the enemy or even your conscience to convince you that one piece of your story is hidden from Him. The aches in your body that have been there so long they seem to have become a part of you. Don't worry. Your Father knows what He intended to be and what is a lie. He remembers the hidden desires that were never fulfilled. He knows the way you feel best when you move and express yourself. He knows who you are. He made you. 

Now in this acknowledgment, we can lay our whole selves in His hands and in peace allow Him to remove what was added and fill in what was once lost. He is your loving, caring, faithful, intimate Sculptor. 

Psalms 139:14-16 tpt
How thoroughly you know me, Lord!
 You even formed every bone in my body
when you created me in the secret place,
carefully, skillfully shaping me from nothing to something.
You saw who you created me to be before I became me!
Before I’d ever seen the light of day,
the number of days you planned for me
were already recorded in your book.

Correction Can Be Sweet

It has been a challenging week for me as a parent (growth spurt, colds, Big feelings in little people.) So much of my time with my children is spent teaching them emotional intelligence. How to interact with other humans. How to navigate relationships and even decipher their own feelings. A significant way I am teaching my kids is by being honest with them about my feelings and failures. Showing my humanity is humbling to me and empowering to them.

I lost my cool with my son yesterday. I raised my voice and got fussy when a simple conversation would have solved the problem. As I was tucking them into bed, I apologized and asked him to forgive me. My sweet boy hugged me tightly and said," I'm sorry I got frustrated, too, mama." Man...... God is so faithful to teach me.

You know what? My Father God has never had to apologize to me. Not even one time. He is always kind, always loving, never selfish, or defensive. He gives us the loving discipline and emotional intelligence to grow and learn like humans. All while He is perfect in actions and words towards us.

If the voice of correction you are hearing is a voice that should apologize for lacking in biblical love, it is not your Heavenly Father. He is always kind, always loving, and speaking life over you.
Keep the written Word in front of you and remind yourself how the Father truly speaks to you. You will receive truth and give out of that truth. You will know exactly where to run, and your words and actions of repentance will happen quickly when you mess up. He is our Good, good Father!!

Psalms 94:12
Lord Yah, there’s such a blessing that comes
when you teach us your word and your ways.
Even the sting of your correction can be sweet.

1John 3:1
Look with wonder at the depth of the Father’s marvelous love that he has lavished on us! He has called us and made us his very own beloved children.

Those People

I’m one of “Those People” the ones who can see God in a dumpster fire. The ones who can turn a discussion about ladybugs into a deep dive on God removing the devouring pests from our lives.

There is a reason for this. Not that I like to make everything overly spiritual or even profound. In fact, my mind is filled with show tunes and movie quotes a lot of the time. It is that I see Him in every situation. He certainly doesn’t bring the bad things, but He has never left them unchanged for my good. In the quiet, in between places He is there. The great I AM. Never forcing Himself and always present.

So many Christians are so focused on fighting Satan they forget to see Jesus. I know the enemy has permeated almost every area we see, touch, and feel. I also know that if we focus our energy on talking with Jesus and learning His heart through the Word of God. The things which are toxic or twisted will become extremely evident, and the chance to edit them will naturally happen.

Be far more Jesus relationship minded then devil hunting friends. There is ease and joy and power in this mindset. Let alone a fun, loving and life-giving friendship to focus on!!

 What could be a better use of our time then to acknowledge the ever-present friend who everything good comes from?  Are you one of the people who have eyes to see Him turning every situation into victory? Are you one of “Those People”?

Matthew 13:16-17
 “But your eyes are privileged, for they see. Delighted are your ears, for they are open to hear all these things. Many prophets and godly people in times past yearned to see these days of miracles that you’ve been favored to see. They would have given everything to hear the revelation you’ve been favored to hear. Yet they didn’t get to see as much as a glimpse or hear even a whisper.”